It’s been over 2 months since my last post on Crazy Happy Mom Life because I wasn’t ready to share what has been happening in our lives. Almost one month ago, my worst fears were confirmed-my sweet, beautiful daughter was diagnosed with Papillary Thyroid Cancer. The last couple months have been unreal feeling with tons of appointments, tests, medications, and surgery. I have definitely been learning a lot, medically and emotionally. You truly never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. My daughter is unbelievably strong-way stronger than any preteen girl should ever ever have to be. Although she may not know it, her strength has helped the whole family pull through each day. When someone you love has cancer, your whole family does, and everybody around them that loves them does too.
Initially I could not bear to post on my blog anymore, because I simply had nothing I wanted to share, but the more time and days go by I have realized, I am not the only one feeling this way, and sharing can be uplifting not only to us, but others as well. My daughter has a long road in front of her, but this is a journey she will never be on alone. I have learned we are surrounded by people who love and care about us.
One of the toughest things we have had to learn is that life is so terribly unfair. I have learned it is ok to scream, cry and fall down, as long as you get back up and fight again. We have heard so much advice, stories, etc and I have learned nobody’s fight is the same-even if it was the same cancer. We have learned there is no right way to feel. No two days are the same, some days are much better than others. Most importantly we have learned life will never be the same-we will not ever be able to return to the “normal” we used to have, we have learned that although it will take time (lots and lots of time-seems like endless some days) but we will find a new “normal”.
So, we are fighting through some tough days to get to the brighter ones ahead. We are stronger than the storm. Some days it just takes that reminder-life is tough, but so are you!